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Living between Countries - On Leaving, Returning and Finding Comfort in Strangeness

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“Do you miss your family?” This is a question I hear a lot when I am living abroad and it’s not easy to reply with a simple yes or no. Yes, it is challenging leaving behind your loved ones, especially when moving away for the first time. No, I am not grieving a loss, because I know they are still there, texting with me, calling, telling me about their lives and vice versa. One or two years ago, my mum and I were walking the dog, wandering the vineyards on the outskirts of my small home village in southwestern Germany. “I have already begun to accept that when you visit, you are only a guest in our house,” she said. For a moment, my heart sunk a bit in my chest, but then I understood what she meant. I have left the nest and even though this place will always be my home and my roots, I have moved on.  I see going abroard as a great privilege. That's not to say it doesn't come with a variety of different challenges, especially when you just finished school: You’re far away from yo...

Would you talk to me?

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Just imagine I arrive at your home at midnight. You open the door, and we talk until 3am, sitting on the terrace. Suddenly, your phone rings downstairs. You go down to answer it. It's my family calling – to tell you that I passed away at 11pm, an hour before I even arrived. Would you come back to the terrace to talk to me? I read this in the status of my dear friend Fatma a couple of weeks back and found it a very fascinating thing to reminisce about. Here is my answer... I t is one of these summer nights where you are just enjoying your evening stroll in the warm breeze and are suddenly surprised by a heavy rainstorm out of nowhere. I had been busy all day and finished working late again, when I decided to go out for a walk around my neighbourhood to relax my mind and quiet my thoughts. I was already on my way back, when the first drops of rain started to fall. They trickled down my skin like small pearls of glass and for a moment I just stood there, face lifted towards the heaven...